Not Again

I went to Mexico over the break and it was awesome but I've decided one thing for sure: I'm not going to leave Ben for that long ever again! I had a lot of fun but it was hard to be in that place that I love so much but not have my whole heart there. I really wanted him to be with me for the beach and fun and I wish I could have been with him for the alpine touring up by Camp Cloud Rim. It's also just caused so many problems that I hope don't have far reaching ramifications... either way I know where I am and where I want to be and nothing will change that. I've made my choice I'm just hoping now that life is kind and makes that choice a little easier for me. I'm not going anywhere, I've found what I want so how could I leave?